I wanna Run…

There are so many things I want to do. I want to thrive, I want to love freely, I want to help people, I want to be loved, I want to be financially independent, I want to write a happy blog…

But most of all; I want to run.

I want to run from everything and everyone. I want to run because it might hurt less than just watching as everything I worked so hard for falls apart.

I used to hear certain phrases so much that at times like these, they pop up in my head. Almost mockingly.

“Endure hardness as a good soldier.”

“Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning.”

What’s the common word here? Endure.

But how long do you endure?

What do you endure?

How much?

That’s why sometimes phrases and things like that can do more harm than good. It’s up to us- to me – to decide what to endure, when, and how long.

I don’t know what direction I’m going in right now, but I do know that I’ve grown weary of enduring.

I don’t want to endure! I don’t want to stay, I don’t want to fight, I don’t want to try, I especially don’t want to fail…

I just want to run.

Run until my problems are so small that I can’t see them.

Run until the pain is gone.

Run until the world is full of love.

Run until I find ‘the answer’.

Run until my heart heals.

Run until I’m me again.

…and I know that’s not an option. But that’s what I want.

I wanna run…

Be good to yourselves and each other.

Love and Light-Mimi 💜 🏃🏾‍♀️