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Poetry Time: Can’t Find Happy

Hello beautiful souls šŸ’– For my blog this week, I’m going to share a poem that I wrote in 2018 and next week I plan to do a follow up on this poem. I do hope you can appreciate this piece.

I want “Happy”.

And that’s a problem

Because happy is unobtainable.

Well, not unobtainable. More so elusive

Most certainly fleeting

And definitely unkind to me.

It’s with me one minute and

At the first sign of conflict

It ducks out. Vanishes.

Through the back door

And out of my life

Without so much as a note.

No explanation. Happy is gone.

I had happy once.

I think I was about nine

My family and I were

Moving into our own place.

Or…wait. Was it my 16th birthday?

I think happy was there

During my first marriage,

Or maybe during my divorce.

I don’t know, but I’m pretty sure that

I had happy at least once, but-

Now, I can’t find it.

Gone again without a trace.

I reach out, but Happy leaves

My messages on ‘seen’.

And happy looks right through me

When we cross paths on the street.

Like an enemy.

Or worse; a stranger.

Not a twinkle of familiarity

In its eyes, but

I promise you;

It’s not my imagination!

I did have it.

And now..I can’t find happy.

That’s quite a problem.

Until next time beautiful souls šŸ’–šŸ’–

Taboo (Religion)

There are certain things that I purposely avoid talking about. Iā€™ve never really been the type of person that likes to upset people.

As I grew older and wiser, I realized that that had to change. I still donā€™t like upsetting people, but I know that there are some things that need to be said- whether someone gets hurt or not. Because in the end, if you donā€™t speak your truth and live your truth, it is YOU that ends up hurting.

That being said, I am going to address a topic that many people may consider taboo: religion. I feel that this is necessary because I recently published a book about a Christian family.

This book, entitled Small Family Battles; was written over 6 years ago when I was a devout Christian. It addresses common issues and situations that occur in everyday life in what I call ā€œchurch culture.ā€

Now, I say ā€˜was a devout Christianā€™ because my views on religion and church culture have changed. My life experiences have caused me to have a less ā€˜black and whiteā€™ view than I had at one point.

But I was never the stereotypical Christian…I didnā€™t judge others and I didnā€™t gossip. I myself was judged and treated like an outcast- no way Iā€™d put anyone else through that! I tried to live by the Bible and be ā€œthe ideal Christian ā€œ…whatever that is.

After a while I had to break free. Try as I might, I couldnā€™t meet the standards of church leadership. Yes, I made mistakes and I sinned, but I was met with the same blatant disdain no matter how good or bad I was doing. Certain other members and I were left out, looked down on, and scrutinized. I had questions about the Bible that I was afraid to ask for fear of more scrutiny. I was becoming depressed and bitter. I didnā€™t feel like I was becoming a better person…and thatā€™s the point of it all, isnā€™t it?

Yes! Of course thatā€™s the point of it all. If you are practicing a religion and are not improving as a person: I urge you to evaluate yourself, your life, and your religion.

And please; donā€™t take this the wrong way. I have absolutely nothing against Christians or any other religious groups! I just believe that people should do what makes them better, happy; whole.

And if religion makes you better- then by all means continue on. But no matter what your religious beliefs are, I do believe that everyone can relate to one of the characters in Small Family Battles. The story is filled with real life situations. Itā€™s entertaining- no matter what your beliefs are.

Until next time; remember to live out loud, love honestly and truly, and always speak your truth.

Love and Light – Mimi šŸ’œ