Tag: Coronavirus

Health Scare

Recently, my husband and I got sick.

First, it was him. He had a bit of a temperature, body aches, chills. A day or two later; so did I.

Immediately he and I both became afraid. You know what we were thinking- coronavirus.

I think I can speak for both of us when I say that we feared for our lives, our family, our livelihood. I myself am high risk and it got me to thinking morbid thoughts as I read and re-read about the virus and it’s symptoms. I could see my hubby mentally going in the same direction.

And then I stopped myself. No, I wasn’t suddenly unafraid but I remembered all of the positive thinking that I had been practicing. And I thought about all the things that I still wanted to accomplish. Not as if I had completely forgotten; but my memory was refreshed on how precious life is.

I talked to my husband. I told him that we were going to be okay. And although we kept our distance from family members; we began to focus on the positive.

Personally, this health scare gave me a new lease on life. It has caused me to more boldly speak my truth.

And while I’m being honest; I stopped blogging as much due to the lack of reaction/understanding of the few people that read this blog. It just seemed to me that when I write about random things that are not so important; that’s when I get likes and follows. But when I spoke about police brutality, systemic racism, and the mistreatment of various groups…

Silence.

It was disappointing to say the least.

But it’s okay. You don’t have to agree with me. You don’t have to ‘like’ another word that I post. It’s still the truth.

It’s still my truth, and the truth of millions of others around the world.

So, if you don’t have a problem with fear gripping you when police get behind your vehicle- even when you’ve done nothing wrong, if you don’t feel the injustice and the irony of law enforcement killing people that look like you at alarming rates, if your ancestors weren’t raped and enslaved, and/or forced onto a small portion of the land that you owned, if you don’t feel for the people being separated from their families, mistreated and locked in cages like animals, or if you don’t have to fear for your job or your healthcare merely based on your sexual preference… good for you I guess.

I’m just a person with a heart. With compassion. And even though all of these things don’t apply directly to me, I have the presence of mind to know that the shit ain’t right! Plain and simple.

Like it or not, it’s my truth. My family’s truth. My shipmate’s truth. My community’s truth. This country’s truth and truth all over the world.

And I will still speak it. Until I can’t speak it anymore.

Thank you health scare. For reminding me.

P.S WE STILL MATTER.

Love and light- Mimi 💜

Keep Smiling

It may seem hard to do right now, with everything that’s going on in the world- but keep smiling.

My heart goes out to all that have been diagnosed with the Coronavirus; and I grieve with those that have lost loved ones… While I don’t know anyone personally who has gone through this; to me, that’s irrelevant. My sense of humanity, my heart hurts when I think of all the lives lost. This is serious!

Because of the seriousness of this situation; I leave my property as little as possible. My husband, out of concern, has heavily suggested that I stay inside as much as possible.

You see, I’m one of those people with a ‘weakened immune system.’ I was diagnosed with Lupus in 2003. And the news of this virus; to be honest, shook me to my core. I literally cried- thinking that I would contract the virus and die. But I couldn’t live that way. I had to shake the fear off!

I decided to choose happiness and productivity over fear and boredom. I am now taking this time to continue working on my personal development. Months before this virus impacted the US, I invested in my education. So, as I sit in wait; I am making myself a more marketable asset. I’m taking typing, learning languages, brushing up on my Microsoft office skills, etc.

That being said, the best thing to do in times like these is to focus on the positive. As long as you’re alive; you are blessed! And there are things you can do while you wait at home for the virus to be subdued. You can find a hobby, write a book, take online classes, make and sell arts and crafts, increase your online presence and communicate that way, rekindle damaged relationships, read…

Believe me when I say; “I am practicing what I preach!” I am telling you to keep smiling because that’s what I told myself. And it’s working. I am working on me. Dieting, exercising, learning, definitely cleaning and disinfecting, sheltering in place, and searching intently for the silver lining each day.

We- as a nation- will be okay. Things may look a little grim at times but this world will be alright.