Allow Today to Be Awesome!

Today is monumental to me. Today- a day that had all the makings of another average occurrence of days tumbling one on top of another, was allowed- by me- to be something magical. I woke up and smiled. “Today is an awesome day!” I said to myself.

I started the day in gratitude. I burned some sage and palo santo, I set my intention for a ‘beautiful day filled with love’. I meditated. I admired my crystals for a little while and then began to say my affirmations.

This time, I decided to say them in front of the mirror. Things were going typically until I got to one specific affirmation:

“I am beautiful.”

When I said this affirmation in the mirror, I cringed. Say it again. So, I did. I didn’t cringe this time. Say It Again. And I did. “I am beautiful.” It wasn’t painful. In fact, it seemed like less of a lie this time. One More Time. “I am beautiful.”

Silence.

I stood there; replaying the words in my head. I looked at myself, and for the first time in all of my life; I saw a beautiful person looking back at me.

“I am beautiful.” I whispered to myself once more…and I believed it! I began to cry.

I never thought I was beautiful. Maybe ‘cute’ sometimes when I have my hair and makeup done. Perhaps ‘pretty’ if I really liked my outfit. But I have never felt beautiful.

So, today is indeed a special day for me. And I hope that today is a special day for you as well. May today be the day that you discover something new about yourself. May today be the day that you find your bliss.

I am grateful for today because it is a milestone on my journey of self-love and self-discovery. Today is a great day because I allow it to be. Because I am a deliberate creator and I decide what type of day I am to have. I decide.

And that in itself; is a beautiful day filled with love.

Much love and be blessed. 💜✨Mimi

Directly after my “I am Beautiful” breakthrough.

Confidence Challenge

Hi!!

I hope that everyone is happy, healthy, and abundant!

I don’t have much to say at this time. (I’m working quietly and manifesting things that I will speak on later.) but, what I did want to reiterate is the absolute power and importance of affirmations!

We are all divine souls encased in human bodies, right? Well, as human beings, we forget our purpose and mission in life as we become accustomed to earth and programmed by society. Things happen to us and we learn certain behaviors as a result. There’s not much we can do about the way we were raised. But as adults; we can fix this!

That is the beauty of technology! If you have a problem and are looking for a solution to it- you can easily find it by doing a little bit of research.

This being said; during the course of my life I had developed some very low self esteem. I felt unattractive, unworthy, and overall unsure of myself on multiple levels. I didn’t want to live the rest of my life this way; so I knew that I had to do something about it!

So I began my plan of action. I was practicing the law of attraction and things started to improve, but I needed more. I looked into hypnosis to clear my subconscious of negativity. That felt great! But I aspired to even greater levels.

I began saying affirmations. Make no mistake- I had been affirming the entire time but after a while; I needed affirmations more catered to the issues that I sought to improve. I researched and found some confidence affirmations. Now, this hit the spot!

I began to say them everyday. I modified some of the affirmations and made them my own. I only kept the affirmations that resonated with me. Now, I’m getting somewhere!

Right?

Well, somewhere isn’t quite there. I felt good, but truth be told; I wasn’t really getting out of the house much because of the pandemic.

I returned to social media. And that’s when I saw that I needed yet more work in the confidence department. I went to take a selfie and I completely froze. I had taken multiple selfies and could not find one that I deemed worthy of posting. I hated each one! I struggled with the sight of my own face.

I felt broken. I thought those affirmations were working! I thought to myself. How disappointed I was. But then I realized that with some lessons, there are tests. It’s pretty easy to say ‘I am beautiful’ in a room by myself. It was time to actually believe it.

So, I created a #ConfidenceChallenge for 45 days and began taking selfies everyday. Each day, I post a picture of myself along with an affirmation. As time went on, it became less difficult to find a picture of myself that I deemed acceptable. I even starting doing short videos (I didn’t really like my voice either).

And now, here it is 31 days later and I can see and feel the difference in the way that I view myself. It wasn’t all about looks- looks only get you so far- but I realize that as I practice all of this self care and self love, that I am able to speak my mind and look at myself instead of cringing.

I began the challenge on social media thinking that maybe it would catch on and make me famous…lol. It may still do that- who knows? But I realized that I’ve already gotten something valuable out of this experiment. I didn’t post any selfies hoping for likes. My aim was to validate myself. And I did that.

That; my friends, is priceless.

Until next time, much love. Be blessed and be free!

Love and Light- Mimi 💜✨

Create Your Joy

Today is a great day!

I firmly believe that for myself as well as you. I was doing my morning meditation, and decided to check out this app I just heard about called Shine. In honor of national women’s day, it was featured in the App Store. So I said, why not?

The meditation for me today; referred to as my “Daily Shine”; was titled “Create Your Joy”. This really resonates with me because I’m into positive thinking, gratitude, and creating my reality. So, after I listened to Fearless Soul (I swear by them too!) I dove into my daily shine and…

This daily shine was really helpful! It put into perspective even more how easy it is to create your own bliss. I realized that there were small and/or simple things that bring me joy and by doing those things; I can make a better mood for myself thus, building better thoughts. And as they say- thoughts become things.

Thoughts Become Things. These three words, like Create Your Joy; are simple yet profound. They unlocked a new way of thinking for me. It made me realize that although unpleasant things may happen in life, that doesn’t make my entire life unpleasant. Yes, pain is painful. But with some positive thinking, that pain can teach a lesson, and maybe even create joy later.

For example: losing my father is the most insanely painful thing that I have experienced in my life so far. But that loss opened my eyes to a lot of things. After I grieved my loss and climbed my way out of depression (it’s a daily process) I began to focus on things that make me feel good. I really dug my heels into the Law of Attraction, meditation, affirmations, and gratitude.

These thought patterns reverberated into my daily life, my relationships, and my outlook on life. I am beginning to focus on my energy and my purpose. I have become a ‘curious seeker of what makes me light up’ (Fearless Soul)

And it feels great!

So, I challenge you to create your own joy. Take some time to think about things that bring you joy. And when circumstances start to go in a direction that doesn’t serve you- stop and reflect for a moment.

Ask yourself: what can I learn from this?

Think about a small thing that brings you joy…and then go do it! If you can’t do it right that second, take a deep breath and visualize yourself doing it.

We are Creators. So…

Create Your Joy!

Be blessed 💜

The giving tree

Do you remember that story by Shel Silverstein? In case you don’t, it’s a story about a tree that deeply loved a little boy; even to its own detriment. As a child, it was one of the stories that impacted me most. I wasn’t sure at the time why that story meant so much- I was so angry at the selfish little boy. I used to wish that the boy would return the tree’s love; or that the tree would realize that the boy didn’t love him and say ‘no’ for once. I wished that the tree would love itself more.

But now, I realize that I grew up to be a human version of that tree.

I didn’t love myself very much. But now, I do. I love myself.

I remember a point in time when I couldn’t honestly say that. I didn’t really see anything worth loving; so I needed someone’s love to validate me. I’ve always been enamored with love. It seemed so out of reach for me. Other people had love, but not me. I longed for it. I chased it. I immersed myself in it.

And I thought something was wrong with me because the people I loved didn’t love me back. I found myself in this cycle- this self destructive cycle- where I’d pour my love into someone until I exhausted myself. The person would take my love gladly, but I received little to nothing in return. When I had nothing else to give; the person became bored and left. I became bitter and depressed…until the next opportunity to prove how worthy of love I was came along…

Each “opportunity” left me more broken than the last.

Until I unplugged. I unplugged from expectations and took some time to myself. I took a good look at myself. Not my outer appearance; but my qualities. My personality. My morals. All the things that make me –Me. And I began to celebrate them. It took some time but yes; I celebrated myself!

And now I can emphatically say that no matter what my relationship status is: I’m okay. Because I do not need another person’s love to complete me. I am whole with or without a partner.

I still love freely and completely, but I’m no “giving tree”. Because I’ve learned that true love doesn’t leave you empty and I love myself enough to walk away from toxicity.

Thanks for reading.

Love and Light- Mimi 💜

Depression. Is. Real.

I’m all about transparency. I feel that in sharing my vulnerabilities; I can perhaps help someone else. Whether it’s preventing them from going down the same path, helping them realize their strengths, or to let them know that they aren’t alone- I just want to help people.

That being said; I just want to go on record and say that Depression is real. It’s not someone being “sad” or just trying to get attention. It’s far more than that. It’s starts internally. Sometimes it builds up. Sometimes it quickly overtakes the person suffering. Either way it goes- depression is real and can be debilitating.

I am currently going through a bout with depression. For weeks, I internalized my feelings. I didn’t want to burden anyone…but as the days crashed into each other and various situations and demands attacked me from all directions; I finally had a meltdown. It wasn’t a stage four freak-out or anything huge, but the depression had made itself impossible to hide.

I went out to my truck to run an errand and one of the tires were flat.

I came unhinged.

I was thinking about making my niece late for work, about how I had to call the attendance office for my daughter, about how little I felt I had done with my life, about Lupus, about everything imaginable-

And I burst into tears. I mean, I wept. This took all of my family members by surprise and they were concerned. I got hugged from all directions. My father took the car keys and headed to the tire shop, and my niece called her job and informed them of our car troubles.

Things were okay…for the time being. But I have a huge issue to resolve somehow. I’m not sure how to go about this. I’ve read that it’s good to set goals and maintain a routine, so I’m working on that. I’m also pushing myself to exercise (endorphins) and do things that I’d ordinarily enjoy.

It’s a process and I’m taking things one day at a time.

If you are a person who suffers from depression, I urge you to talk to someone. Look for the beauty and positivity in each day and focus on that. Know that you are loved. Invaluable. Please hold on. You can beat this!

Be blessed. I’ll see you on the mountain top. ❤️